Wollongong Jackass

its been 3 days since i arrived back in indo,
tho physically im in indo, but mind and heart are still left in gong ...
miss it so much ... miss all my friends back there at most...
been stucked in the corner of the room that i've been stayin since im back ...
readin a pile of news paper from the last 1 month since i left indo ...
catchin up all the news i have missed ...
the smell of old news paper and dust stung to my nose ... but it aint stopin me from readin ...
well i had nothin to do anyway ...
anyway ...
im in indo now ... soon enuf, gonna look forward to what i will do ...
havent met my parents and sisters also ... *also that little brat ... i meant, little brother ...

spent one memorable month in gong ...
almost did everythin i ever want it ...
been to "kensington mountain" which actually mount keira ... lol (i always called it kensington mountain lol ...)
went to gong beach few times...
had great last dinner with closest friends ... sunny, aloy, katie, eddie, freda ... and also tifany (tho just knew her)
had so much precious conversations with katie ...
went to south to see other side of nsw =P
can see beef and lamb ... i meant cows and sheep .. also cute cute goats (umm, how did it sound again kat? lol) ...
and had so so so much good laughs with aloy ... lol .. mostly coz of katie's idiocity, cannot differenciate aaron and curtis ...
and also finally spilt on his face ... nice =D
lost few kilos ..=D
made delicious pizzas ... egg tarts ... and other italian and french foods .. *well, mostly i just ate them =P
also apologized to jim also .. hehe .. finally ...
took pic of UoW ...
lunch with best comp sci buddies ... lyon and wincent (i really really really gonna miss u two .. ><)
lunch with debby ... accy friend =)
didnt chat a lot with chandra =(
also missed rose, my old landlady ... wonder how she is ><
gonna miss everythin ><
includin myself ... coz i may not be the same person as i was in gong with those friends ...

well ...
thanks so much wollongong ...
thanks so much all my friends ...
all of you made my days in wollongong to be beautiful and memorable ...
memory that i will bring to whereever i will be goin ... memory that will be with me till im old ...
i love any one of u and i will miss u guys a lot ...
a lot more than my words can describe ...
u guys helped me changin to be a better sam ...
i wouldnt be like i am now , i wouldnt be as happy person as i am now, without u guys entering my life journey ...
and because of u guys .. im back to indo as not the same sam as 4 years ago ...
sam who knew nothin bout life and friendship ...
sam who knew nothin bout hard workin ...
sam who had very narrow minded and view ...
sam .. who bla bla bla ... *fill the blank =P
(only one thing u guys couldnt change ... my view of myself that im so handsome ... =D no matter how many times u guys called me ugly, i sitll feel handsome .. dunno why ... i think its becoz its a fact that i'm so so so so handsome ... =P lol)
thanks so so so much for lighten my ways ... brighten my mind ...
open wider my eyes so i can see more ...
its all because of you guys ...
i can never thank enough ...


cheers ...
ex-wollongong jackass
*now i am officially ex-wollongong jackass ... =(

i was angry few weeks ago to a friend ...
said few bad things to him...
and since then, i dun really feel good >< ...
never know this side of myself until then...
some people i have met did worse than him, but i didnt do bad to them as i did to this friend ...
katie said she doesnt like me when i told her about this my other side ... i also dun like myself actin that way also ><
she said, i probably might kill her if she betrayed me .. lol...
well, i dun think i can be that bad ...
but we never know ...
maybe there are darkness in ourself that we never cover it up yet ... (maybe)
maybe there are so many things that we still dont know yet about ourself ... (maybe)
do i actually really know, understand and trust about myself? the answer maybe not ...
katie ever told to me that she cant even trust herself ...
at 1st, i tot it was quite rediculous ...
i mean .. if u cant trust urself, how can u trust other ... and how u can be trusted by others?
but in the end, i do realise ...
there are times that i also cant and shall not just trust what i think is right to do stright away ...
perhaps that is one of the reason why we need family and friends...
to brighten our view ... to give us opinion ... and even more, to put as back on track when we lose our way ..
most of the time, i make a quick decision and do it without thinkin too far ...
well, it seems not so good >< ...
hopefully can change this so next time will ask others opinion 1st before doing something or making a decision ...
at least got few different views to see ...
*write all these here to remind myself later .. xD

last nite felt so bad actually ... especially after thinkin bout the past ... how he was and me used to be ...
really wanna call him and apologize ..
but during day time .. i dun really feel this guilty ><
but at night .. it will come to my mind ...
i wud call him last nite if i didnt realise it was 5 in the freakin morning ...
he made mistake (everyone does), but i still think what i said was really uncalled for ...
dun really like this guilty feeling ><
oh well ... same old words from me ... shit happens shit happens ...

oh ya ... happy chinese new year ... gong xi fa cai (what ever u pronounce it .. gong xi fat choi ... kung hei fat choi = =) ... for all u who celebrates it ...
pig year huh ... i guess its gonna be smelly .. xD .. (but depends tho, if already become pork chop .. shud be yum yum =P)
actually for me ... in the last 2 years ... every year is pig year ...
i got 2 piggy friends here ... face so pig ... smell so pig ... and head so big some more ... both of them = =
darn aliens ... they pinch and bite when they are iritated ... scary

ex-wollongong jackass ...

umm ... i dunno how to start this ...
well firstly ...
MERRY CHRISTMASSSSSSSSSSSSS
and
HAPPY FREAKINNNNN NEWWWW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR


well, basically, this is my current condition >_<
- i finished my internship ...
- no more workin in the jungle, no more passin those dusty road ...
- broken heart ...
- lazy ...
- gettin fat ...
- new hair colour ...
- still lovin programmin tho ...
- have a bit different point of view of life ... lol
- goin to arman's house tomorrow ... *livin in cityyyy ... wooohoooooo

well ... whatever happened, and gonna happen, im still standin still, and so let i be that way for longer time ...
i only have about one week left in indo, then i will fly to singapore and stay there for about 4 days ...
then back to my beloved wollongong ...
god, dunno how to describe how much i miss wollongong ...
the most memorable place on earth ...
but dunno how long am i gonna stay there? will i continue my master? in accounting some more? uow?
*what about my download? =(
cant answer it all here ... but will tell it up soon ....
so much things happened during internship, bad and good, ugly and so so ... lol ..
it helped me to open my view a bit ... about workin life, gave me a bit idea what i actually want to do later ...

umm ... have so much thing in mind what am i gonna do once i arrive in wollongong ...
surely turn on that big big big big big sweetttt TV in livin room *gonna kiss it later ...*
and enjoy the ice cream with the hot oz weather (no flies pls)
andddd continue my download ... =D
whatelse? ;( clean up my room ... anyone wanna help?
ah ... sleepin in bath tub with fresh water in hot weather ... must be so good ...
go to beach (kat, im waitin u lho ><)

ah really cant wait to get there ...
chattin hours and hours, morning to morning, with my best pal, chandra ...
meet and talk to eddie
and see sunny's hair ... is it growin back? or losin?
and smell of jim *yuck, hopefully trip to jap give him new smell lol*
go to building3 ... sweet ... love it ...
and meet all my comp sci buddies .... hiii porn mania ...

ah anyway ..
time runs fast for sure ..
let me close my eyes, and without realize it, 8th i'll be there ... sweet ...

cheers ..
ex-wollongong jackass *woottt "ex"???? no longer a jackass?*

hehe ... long no write anythin ...
still sad bout the uni result where i have to fail for the 1st time ...
im doin internship in comp science field now .. next town to my hometown ... in indo ...
start to enjoy writing program again..
im currently workin in coal mining ... in their IT department
the area is very hot ... and its in the middle of ... well .. kinda jungle ..
im happy as im doin fine in my job ...
not happy bout the weather ... and the food somehow ... and the electricity (dunno how to describe it here = =)
always get sick coz the air so dirty .... and get diarrhea at least once a week ... and keep coughin ...

i cant really write much ...
just write this as a trace that im still alive ....
hehe ....
i miss wollongong so much ...
miss all my friends ...
miss talkin wif them ..
miss my love one ...


cheers...
wollongong jackass